I bought red lipstick today. Matt doesn't like lipstick. For five years I haven't worn lipstick. But I got some today. Because Matt isn't here to disapprove.
I wish he was.
I wish I didn't have to wait weeks between hearing from him. I wish I could go ahead and get mad at him when his letter finally comes and it's not what I needed to hear. I wish I could get a text saying goodnight and I love you. It's hard to sleep without those. I haven't gotten to sleep very easily for 5 months now.
And I wish I could write about something else! It's not fair that I am thinking of him, missing him, all day, every day. Endlessly.
I wish he was.
I wish I didn't have to wait weeks between hearing from him. I wish I could go ahead and get mad at him when his letter finally comes and it's not what I needed to hear. I wish I could get a text saying goodnight and I love you. It's hard to sleep without those. I haven't gotten to sleep very easily for 5 months now.
And I wish I could write about something else! It's not fair that I am thinking of him, missing him, all day, every day. Endlessly.
