Bummer

So I got my tonsils out yesterday. Not the most drastic of surgeries, but still, I wish Matt was here :( I know if he was he would be taking good care of me, getting me whatever I need/want, rubbing my back, playing with my hair, distracting me. Sigh. I mean, I'll be fine. My mom is doing fine taking care of me, but its just not the same. Matt can ALWAYS make me feel better in a way that nobody else can. Oh well, no use being sad about it. On a happier note, Matt has been out for 3 months now! It's going by fairly quickly, this week being the exception. And I've heard from other girls that after the 3 month mark, times speeds up even more. Also, this week is our 3 year anniversary! I've got to send a package....I have a scrapbook thing, and a CTR ring, and tape recording to send him. I need to make him some cd's he asked for, and I also want to make some sort of treat to send with it. I wanted to get this all sent last week so he would get it in time. But I have no money with which to send it. I'd better get that out tomorrow. except I need to buy blank cd's. Which is where having no money becomes an issue. Maybe my mom will help me out.

Mothers Day

This weekend was kind of hard for me, as it is every year. May 9th is my dads birthday, and May 8th is the anniversary of his death. So during this Mothers day, while I was thinking about my mom and how much I love and appreciate and look up to her, I've also been missing my daddy. I can't help but think how different our lives would be if he was still here. I'm missing the life I never got a chance to have, because his was cut short. And just missing him in general. I wish I had been older, so I would have had a chance to get to know him better. Maybe it's better that I didn't. I never really knew the bad side, the drug addict side of my dad. I was just always daddy's little princess, and I always looked up to him. Obviously I still have those memories of the bad times, ten years old is old enough to figure out what was really going on. But the majority of my memories are good ones, and I am grateful for that.
In other news, Happy Mothers Day to my sweet mom! I love her with all my heart, and appreciate all that she does for me. She is my best friend, and I could not imagine life without her. Also Happy mothers day to my amazing sister. She has the cutest stinkin' kids I have ever met in my entire life, and she is such a good cute little mommy. I look up to her in lots of ways.
In other other news, I got to talk to Matt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't thank his mom enough for including me in her phone call. The whole family got in on a conference call, so it was his mom and dad and all three brothers and their wives and me. It was definitely different from what I'm used to. With my brothers, we always just had the one phone line, and everyone would take turns just talking to them alone. But yeah, so with Matt's family we were all on the line together. Which worked out fine, if anyone had something to say they just said it, and we all got to hear Matt's answer. He sounds like he is doing so good! He has a baptism set up already, and he has only been there for two weeks! It sounds like his ward and his area is just doing wonderfully. And he is being fed amazing food every night, and he loves his companion, and he is doing so awesome at speaking the Spanish. I'm so so proud of him. And it was great to hear his voice. ah, I love him!