missing you.

I MISS MATT! I need him. I don't know what it is right now, but my heart is just aching for him. I need him here to wrap his arms around me and just, be there. Maybe it's just because I didn't get a letter last week. I dunno. This is probably the saddest I've felt since he left. Tonight it just feels more real. He is really gone. How am I gonna last two years of this? I don't think I'm strong enough to handle this. I just want him home. Ugh, I'm so pathetic. It's barely been one month. I know he is doing the right thing. I know he is supposed to be there, not here. I'm glad he is out serving the lord. But I miss him. End of story.