Frustration.

Sometimes I'm just so frustrated with Everyone! And one very special person is so talented that I can be frustrated with him as well, and yet he is the only person in this world I want to talk to. Alas, he is the only person in this world that I cannot talk to whenever I want. Oy, such is life. I miss Matt. Right now all I want is to rewind to about a year ago. Life made more sense then. Things were going right then. I was cuddled up in the arms of my love, probably doing homework together or something else very productive and promising. Probably listening to love songs and singing as we worked and stopping for kisses and talking about the future and how amazing it was going to be. At that time I was not in debt, stressed to my breaking point, and depressed beyond belief. I wasn't a big ole grouch all the time. What the heck has happened to me? I'm so sick of feeling like such a bum all the time. I need a job! I need money! I need school! I need a place to live away from my parents! I need a cell phone! I need a car! Then, I will be happy and content with life again. Although even with all those things, I'll still miss Matt. Unfortunately, that never ends. At least not for 18 more months.