Love Him!

Okay its been a while. Lets see...I got a package with a tape recording in it for my birthday present! That was super amazing. I have been listening to it every night. Oh and today I just found out that it has more on the other side, so thats exciting :) How did I find out about the flip side? Oh, Matt just told me during his PHONE CALL from the airport! Totally unexpected. He pretty much scolded me before saying he doesn't see why I would care when his flight is, that there is no way he will be calling me, it would be against the rules, blah blah blah. I was actually quite upset after that letter. But then HE CALLED! I really talked to him! It was kinda funny. I was laying in bed, sleeping, when my phone started vibrating and woke me up, I didn't recognize the number but for some reason I answered anyway. So I'm all sleepily like, Hello? And I'm kinda mad that this person woke me up. Then I hear, "Hello, Kaylie?" and I'm like ".....Yeah?" "Did I wake you up?" And thats when I realized, MATT! Honey! HI! I think I literally squealed, haha. He just started laughing at me. Oh my gosh he is sooo adorable! He told me he loved me lots of times. He said he thinks of me a milllion times a day. He said it was crazy being out of the MTC, seeing guys with long hair, and girls in tank tops. He saw one guy with a mohawk while he was talking to me, haha he says, "I feel like a rebel just looking at it" Out of the MTC bubble. He bore his testimony of prayer and building a relationship with our Heavenly Father, and reading the scriptures. He got a commitment out of me to do that every night. He has such a powerful spirit about him. Even through the phone, it really touched me. I'm honestly amazed. So yeah, thats my latest news. And I get to talk to him again on Mothers Day! Can't wait :)

No Worries

I got my letter today, but not before I sent one out totally guilt tripping him about not getting a letter on my birthday week. Whoops :/ Ha I guess I need to learn patience when it comes to getting letters. It was a big, fat, super sweet letter too. Ah I'm in love! Another poor Elder in Matt's district got Dear Johned, and I think it shook Matt up a bit. This guy was totally engaged, with a wedding date set and everything! Poor guy. But I told Matt that he NEVER needs to worry about that with us. I am totally and completely in love, forever :) I haven't had a doubt in my mind about marrying Matthew since day one. I'm soo happy right now! Matt also said that he has a surprise birthday present set up for me, and he was super excited about it, and that he just knows I am going to love it. This makes me so very curious...I wasn't expecting any sort of present from him at all. What could it be?

Birthday Week

I'm nineteen years old! Crazy stuff. It was a really good day. I was really bummed at first, because I had to work. But after I was up there, the boy I was going to be watching canceled, so I got to go home! So I got home, and frosted Easter sugar cookies with my sisters. Then we went out to lunch/ shopping at Tae Pan and Hobby Lobby. There are so many cute things at these places to decorate your house! I cannot wait until I can seriously be shopping for that stuff for OUR home. Then that night my mom took us out to a movie. We saw The Last Song. I really liked the movie, but I really want to read the book. I loved the story line, but Miley Cyrus bugs me, so that put a damper on the movie. Ugh it was a sad one tho. Definitely a tear jerker. Then we got dinner at Red Robin. Yumm :) And today, Sunday, I got my birthday dinner combined with Easter dinner. My mom gave me this learn Spanish computer program, basically just like Rosetta Stone. I'm so excited! I wanted to learn Spanish way bad while Matt is gone, so we can speak it together in our home :) Basically, I love my family. They do so much to make me feel special and loved, and I know they care about me. Especially my mom. She is such a sweetheart, I know she tries so hard to give me the world and make me happy. I love her so much, I don't know what I'd do without her. The Big Bummer of everything tho, is that I didn't get a letter this week :( I'm missing Matt so so much! I'm missing the whole, presents and a nice date and a birthday kiss and having him there hanging out with my family, holding my hand. And gosh darn it I needed to hear from him this week! I guess I sorta did tho...He left me three letters in envelopes the night he left. they said, Do not open until your birthday, Do not open til Anniversary, Do not open til Christmas. So I opened my birthday one. I'll post it up here:
Dear Kaylie,
Happy Birthday to the sweetest of girls who ever existed. Now you might think its silly to write you letters to you beforehand when I'll send you occasion cards while on my mission, but the difference is that I can't feel homesick about talking about stuff when I write them now :) Lets do a recap of all our birthdays together. I think by far your lamest birthday with me was #15 because I didn't even really know about it. Thats ok I don't feel too guilty about that one. The next one, #16 was definitely a step up. I remember it was just after you cut your hair short and it looked so good. Gosh now that I think back, you were thee best friend ever! I was so excited everytime I got to see you :) I can't really remember what we did but i do remember that I got you that thin long sleeved shirt thing. Not my best effort, but hey! I was still a beginner. #17 was probably my next lamest. I downloaded two cds off itunes and put them on cds for you. Though I did think that personalized kids songs cd was hilarious :) hahahaha:) I really think that #18 was my shining moment. Honestly and a little shamefully i cannot remember what I got you. I just remember what we did and how amazing that whole day felt :) I tried extra hard all day to be really nice and sweet. I remember how we went to Goodwood but it was a really long wait so i decided to fill up on Frogurt. Haha and since that wasn't enough, I decided to order a Giant plate of nachos as an appitizer. haha by the time we both got our food that we ordered we were so stuffed. haha pretty smart on my part. So we let our stomachs settle a little bit. Then we parked ourselves at Lonepeak to go sledding. haha man that was some great ice to slide and fall on haha. without a doubt teh best part was our special little dance. You looked so gorgeous in your peacoat :) That dance party was all kind of an on-the-spot decision but it was amazing. I hope your day today is just as special. I hope you enjoy Alice in Wonderland. I love you so much forever and always :) Mmmmmwaa!
Love,
Matt

Okay, so I appreciate that, but I hope he didn't think that would count as a letter for my birthday week! It's super sweet that he does remember all of that tho. I love that we have that many years together to recall! And there is an eternity of more still to come! He just has to miss these two. I can deal with that. Okay now that I vented I am feeling much much better. And I'm glad I typed that letter out. It made me appreciate it more. Mm I love him so much!

Two Letters!

Yay I got a letter yesterday with a bunch of pictures, and another long letter today! I guess the mail got backed up or something. Apparently he hadn't heard from me for two weeks either. But he got my packages, he is doing really well, he is looking super cute, and he loves me :) I feel a thousand times better! I love that boy so much! Oh so last night I made this digital scrapbook thing on ourhubbub.com. Its one of those things where you put in all the pictures online and choose the layout and colors and say what you want and stuff, and then they will publish it into a nice little book for you. I made one before, for my little boy in the preschool class I took/taught, and it turned out really nice. I've been wanting to make one for myself ever since. So anyway last night I finally did! Its just got a bunch of pictures of me and Matt, from the time we met up til the day he left. I'm so excited for it to get here!

missing you.

I MISS MATT! I need him. I don't know what it is right now, but my heart is just aching for him. I need him here to wrap his arms around me and just, be there. Maybe it's just because I didn't get a letter last week. I dunno. This is probably the saddest I've felt since he left. Tonight it just feels more real. He is really gone. How am I gonna last two years of this? I don't think I'm strong enough to handle this. I just want him home. Ugh, I'm so pathetic. It's barely been one month. I know he is doing the right thing. I know he is supposed to be there, not here. I'm glad he is out serving the lord. But I miss him. End of story.

Our Story

This picture was taken a couple of months after we met. This is our story:

When I was 14 years old, in ninth grade, my life wasn't going so great. Depression, bad friends, and poor choices had me going down a path that I didn't want to be on. So I began praying like crazy for God to help me find a new friend. Somebody who would lift me up, and help me remember and keep my standards and values. Somebody who I could be myself around, who would love and accept me for who I am. I needed a good friend so badly. Cut to November, 2005. I walked in late to my English class one day, and there was a new boy sitting there. My first thought was that this was the cutest guy i had ever seen. When he stood and introduced himself, "My name is Matt. I'm from California, and no I do not surf," I was charmed. But I figured he would be swooped up by some popular group of people, and I would probably never really know him. Boy, was I wrong. I was pleasantly surprised when, a couple days later, one of my guy friends invited Matt to eat lunch with us. I found myself easily conversing with him, overcoming my usual shyness. We just clicked. It wasn't long before we were the best of friends. I never quite got over my initial crush, but that didn't matter. We were best friends, and I had never been happier. As time went on, going into high school together, our relationship naturally progressed. As we got closer, it was as natural as breathing to say "I love you", to give each other the biggest hugs, back rubs. Pretty soon that turned into holding hands and cuddling in movies, and kisses on the cheek. All of it without a second thought. But we were just "best friends". I tried to date other guys, but nobody could even compare. Then about a week after I turned 16, Matt kissed me. I couldn't believe how incredibly wonderful it was. That's when I truly realized that I was in love with him. However, fear of ruining our friendship made things very complicated, and we decided we needed to back off. But I could not shake the feeling, that yes, this is my best friend. And thats how I want it to be for not just the rest of my life, but for eternity. I wanted to spend forever with Matt. A month later, it finally came to a tear filled confrontation of our true feelings. We were in love, and that's that. No more fighting it. Once we accepted that, it was all very easy. From that time, and still today, I love him more and more every day. Not that our relationship has been perfect, far from it. But I know we can handle anything. We can work through anything, and be happy together forever.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is the reason why I am waiting. I know that Matt is doing the right thing by serving a mission, and I know that when he is done, he will come home to me. I can wait two years for eternity with the man of my dreams.

One Month Down

Matt has officially been gone for one month. He is still in the MTC, he'll be there for another month still since he is learning Spanish. I miss him. A lot. But not as much as I had feared. I think the anticipation of him leaving was a lot worse then him actually being gone. I love writing letters and making packages. I love love love getting letters. I miss phone calls and texting though. I hate waiting a week for a reply. I'm trying to stay busy, to keep my mind off things. Nothing is worse than just having absolutely nothing to do. Thats when I miss him the most. Matt and I were basically joined at the hip ever since we first met. If I was ever bored, with nothing to do, he was either right there with me, or texting me non stop if he couldn't be with me. But I'm really trying to stay positive. I dream about him almost every night, and that has been a great comfort to me. I feel like I'm still getting to spend time with him :) I don't think its dawned on me quite how long two years is. I'm just taking it day by day.
p.s. that is a picture of Elder Sheets. Isn't he handsome? :)